So long.

I did not realize that it had been so long since I had updated my blog. I have not had much computer time these days and when I do it is usually spend talking to members of my Diva team. They are all so helpful and usually get me through the rough times. My diet is so great this time around. I actually think I could stay on it forever but I talked to Julie yesterday and it sounds like it is about to be tighten up a bit. I am 6 weeks out today and my energy level is not that great but I am pretty sure that is because of my sleep deprivation. I have been waking up at 3-3:30am every morning and it is making me crazy! I mean I get up at 4am anyway but an extra 30 min to an hr are alot when a girl is trying to grow some muscles. My workouts this week have not been on at all. I feel as if I am going through the motions and not really working that hard even on cardio. I am sure that has to do with sleep as well. My clothes are hanging on me and I have had to bring out the smaller versions from the back of the closet. I am starting to get, the "are you okay?" you have dropped so much weight! I hate that because people do not understand this process. I have not seen my family for a couple of weeks so I hope my mom does not start to freak out again. I am not as bad as last time but I think it is coming. I really thought a couple of weeks ago that I had built some good muscle the 10 months I was off season but now as I start to cut I am starting to worry again. I guess I need to just focus on getting lean and then the muscle I do have will have to show. I have come to realize that I will always be lightweight and that is fine. I can live with that. Posing is coming along and I think I will be ready, thanks to Cori. Now if I only lived closer to her I would be set. Pictures coming soon!